Monday, June 25, 2012

Finally...a BFP!!!



First of all, if you have a problem with seeing photos of home pregnancy tests...then now would be a good time to quit reading!  Only a woman who has faced infertility can understand the NEED to test this many times...and I'm that woman!  Secondly, I have updated the blog for you who actually read it...not the Facebook masses who click on a link when I kindly provide it.  In return, I am asking that you please NOT place anything on Facebook in reference to this post...or any future posts.  If you want to message me, please do so in the comments here or at my email which is lucyddr@yahoo.com

Now that those are out of the way...  WE ARE PREGNANT!!!  After 2 years, 4 IVF/FET cycles and 3 embryo transfers, 2.25 gallons of sharps injected, over 50 blood draws, 40 ultrasounds, 4 procedures under anesthetic, thousands of dollars, hours of tears, bruises and lumps, and a few other "details," something finally worked!  And the photos above tell the story...

We began this frozen embryo transfer process with an endometrial biopsy (under local anesthetic only) on May 16...today our blood test confirmed a pregnancy!  So...it's been a LONG process!  I really didn't expect it to work, as frozen embryos often don't implant as well as fresh ones.  We also took a gamble with the 10 that were frozen (previously thought to be 9...but they managed to "save" one more at the last minute) and thawed them all 2 days before we did the transfer to allow them to grow 2 extra days in culture.  In laymens terms...it weeds out the weaklings.  Out of the 10 we began with, 7 survived wonderfully!  On June 16, we placed 3 beautiful blasts (5 day embryos).  4 blasts were re-frozen...and can be used at a later date if needed.  The transfer went very nicely and I came home to 4 days of very strict bedrest...this time, only being allowed to lay on my sides (no back, stomach, etc).  It passed fairly quickly...thankfully! 

On Tuesday, June 19, we had an implantation "sign."  Because it's TMI...just trust me...it made me hopeful!

On Thursday, June 21, I had terrible heartburn that wouldn't let up with Tums.  I wanted a Prilosec like an addict wants crack!  But...I didn't care to take it if I was pregnant.  Once I got home, I told Adam and we decided to home test.  If it was negative, I would end my torture and take the Prilosec (figuring that if there was no pregnancy hormone, it wasn't likely to cause harm).  Well...we did the test together (no privacy in our home)...and it was very faintly positive! I couldn't help but cry...I was shocked, happy, and scared!

Over the next few days, the lines got more visible and digital tests were positive.  Of note is that the cheapo Dollar Store tests were minimally positive...even yesterday.  Lesson: Don't depend on Dollar Tree for your home pregnancy test needs!  On Saturday, we told only our parents...obviously they were happy!

Today was our official  beta-HCG blood test. I told one of our two nurses in Nashville that I was pregnant just before the blood was drawn...just hoping it was enough.  She teared up and hugged me...clearly she was excited!  I'm a touch sad that our other nurse was off, but hoping she'll hear the news when she gets back!  As for the test, any number over 50 would have been "good."  I was just hoping for over 100...as I felt that was a better, safe, and solid number.  Well...it was 284!!!  We probably have more than one baby growing inside me, but won't know for a couple more weeks.

We have told our family members and very close friends...and we feel so blessed and thankful for this opportunity!  We pray that the pregnancy progresses well and will be thankful for every day of it that we get...regardless of the ultimate outcome.  We go back on Wednesday and are looking for the number to double.  So, we'll hope for the best and be thankful regardless!

For those who have prayed, thank you!  I believe all of our prayers have been answered and I am VERY grateful!  Here we go...

And BTW...BFP means BIG FAT POSITIVE!!!

8 comments:

Amber said...

I am SOOOOOO HAPPPPPPYYYYYYY to hear your good news. I have been following you since last fall since I started this game, and I have forever been rooting you on since. Discovered your blog from the fertility forum (my handle Wishes4Baby).

I am also so happy to relay that I am in the same very happy boat. We had our FET with two blasts on Jan 31st and so far so good. Our 3rd beta came in at 2925! 7 week u/s is this Monday. I am nervous.

This just made my day, I hope and pray our miracles are here to stay. Best wishes, Amber

MaryMargaret said...

Holy crap! Congratulations!!!! I know it's been a long and bumpy road- you guys so deserve this. What an awesome beta, too!

Jenny Wren said...

WAHOOOOOOOO!!!! I'm jumping up and down with excitement for you! I'm sorry I dropped off the face of the earth and wasn't there for you during this cycle but looks like you did JUST FINE without me! :)

Congrats on that fabulous beta! Can't wait to see it go up up up!!

Seriously - I am beyond thrilled for y'all. Much love and huge hugs ~Rosewater

JorDan said...

HOORAY!!!!!! I'm sooooooo excited for you!! I'm so happy to hear that through this crazy trial, you never gave up and now your dreams are coming true! I hope for the best pregnancy for you and all the joy you can take. I can't wait to follow you on this journey!!!!
I'll admit I did like a quadtriple check on that photo, I was like "huh????" SO SO HAPPY!!!!

Adam and Loucinda Sawinski said...

Thanks everyone!!! Rose, I started to message you but wondered if you would actually see it. Jordan...yes, we took a "few!" Mainly, I wanted to see the line darken...a good sign of a healthy IVF pregnancy!

We are very blessed and super excited! Will update more tonight!

Rebekah Newsome said...

Cinda and Adam, it is your time. I am so filled with joy and have no words right now. I want you to know I have prayed for you two and am not stopping now that you are pregnant. This has made my whole month. <3

Anonymous said...

Cinda and Adam...so happy for you!! Smiles to you~~~ JI

Randi said...

I am so incredibly excited for you! This is the best news! =D I know that you and Adam will be amazing parents! I hope and pray that everything goes wonderfully, and I can't wait to see pictures of you holding your babies!