Tuesday, July 19, 2011

Not much to say...

For those who knew we were going back to Nashville today, we went. We were given some news that wasn't at all what we had hoped to hear...frankly that no happily married stable couple would ever want to hear. From this point forward, Adam and I have some big decisions to make that are very personal. I don't know when we will update the blog again, as I don't know what decisions we will make or how (or when) the ones we do make will happen. Thank you to those who have followed our blog and supported us these past few months with prayers, calls, texts, and emails. We appreciate them very much!

Thursday, July 7, 2011


Today was our official beta-HCG test to determine whether our cycle worked or not. Adam and I home-tested several times this week and all were negative, so I had a bad feeling. Frankly, I never felt "great" that things worked anyway. (I felt like things went as well as they could, but didn't have a good feeling about the success of the cycle.)

In short, we are NOT pregnant...the IVF cycle failed. Sometime in the next couple of weeks, Adam and I will head to Nashville to hear from Dr. Vasquez why he thinks the cycle failed, what could be changed for the next cycle, and whether or not another cycle is in our best interest. From there, Adam and I will decide what's best for us and our families. Frankly, we will likely go through the process again, but will wait a couple of months.

On a positive note, my red, swollen, hot hips (from the injections) will now get a chance to heal and I can begin to feel more like myself...and less "hormonal." I'm looking forward to being a wife again who doesn't require 9 extra pills and a nightly shot!

Thank you for all of your calls, texts, and emails today. We appreciate them all! Our only request is that you please hold your questions for now. The questions being asked are ones that we don't know the answers to yet...and may not for several weeks. Again, thanks!

And by-the-way...BFN means "Big Fat Negative!" It and it's counterpart BFP (the happy acryonym) are common IVF lingo. Amazing what you learn from this process...