Saturday, December 31, 2011
Merry Christmas (a little late) and Happy New Year!
The week also afforded Adam and I the opportunity to visit some of our closest friends and some new friends, who happen to live in Jacksonville. We spent 2 days visiting with everyone in Jacksonville and loved every minute of these times together! Though we enjoy Tennessee, most of our friends are still in Jacksonville (except for a few)...so the visits were wonderfully refreshing for us! We also visited Grandmother in Moultrie on the way home, and we visited Grandaddy's grave site. Obviously, it was sad...but well worth the "detour."
We are now glad to be home. Adam will stay up tonight, eat pickled herring, and toast to a glass of sparkling wine. For me, I'll be barely awake, will eat the tiniest bite of herring possible to still "count," and avoid the alcohol because I'm on call! (Maybe a sip at most...) Tomorrow, we'll eat greens and black-eyed peas (for money and good luck) with Mom and Dad.
For me, New Years is not anything special. This is probably because I've been on call for 7 of the last 9 of them! Guess that takes away the "celebrating!" I guess for many though, New Years symbolizes fresh starts and hope. I don't have much in the way of resolutions, as this year has taught me that most of what I desire can't be given or earned. Frankly, this year has taught me two things...one is that really, there are many things that none of us can control in life. The second lesson that 2011 has taught me is that sometimes, we really can only handle one day at a time and have to often get by on a day-to-day basis. I've certainly had these reality checks this year!
2011 has been full of losses for us. Grandaddy's death was by far the greatest loss for our entire family. Our infertility and realizing that a "natural" pregnancy was impossible for us has been the second loss. Between the two, it's been hard to see any light at the end of the tunnel. 2012 is predicted by many (including Adam) to be a "better" year. While it's hard for me to believe it, I sure hope the "many" are right! For me 2012 is another year...just another calendar date to get used to writing. I'd love for it to be the year we have our first child...but time will tell on this matter.
For those who love New Years, Happy New Year! For those of us, like me, who just see a change in numbers tomorrow, best wishes that 2012 surprises us with its good fortunes! God bless you all in 2012!
Posted by Adam and Loucinda Sawinski at 5:04 PM