Wednesday, October 5, 2011

If It Wasn't For Bad Luck...

I guess the old saying, "If it wasn't for bad luck, we'd have no luck at all," holds true to us again... Everything in this cycle seemed perfect, until Monday. On Monday, our labs took a big dive. While we hoped it was a "pharmacological" response to a decrease in the meds, I KNEW it was more. On Tuesday, our (ok...MY fears) were validated. Despite a HUGE dose of stimulation medications, our numbers barely rose and our follicles didn't grow. So, we were basically told that the odds of success were slim with IVF and that our cycle was being cancelled. Because we did have a few decent follicles, they offered us IUI (intrauterine insemination) as a "salvage" procedure.

Tomorrow morning, we will head to Nashville for the IUI. The odds of success are slim to none, but's this or nothing. Since I had already planned to be off, I am going to take the day tomorrow to relax and give this the best shot possible (all 1% of it).
Once this fails, we are going to take a break until next year... I can't speak for Adam, but I NEED a break. For the next 2 weeks, we'll continue with 3 injections per day (2 Lovenox and 1 Progesterone/Estrogen combo)...which means more bruising for me. I figure it's like a torture sentence...but know that IF a miracle occured and we did get pregnant, we'd lose the pregnancy without it.

So...once again...with very heavy hearts, it just wasn't meant to be. Maybe not ever...guess we'll just see what the future holds.


Anonymous said...

You have a lot of people praying for you here, and several folks on your side in heaven too. It sure is taking much longer than we thought, but that doesn't mean a miracle isn't on its way.


IVFlygirl said...

Oh Lucy, I am so sorry to read this! I feel like I could have written this post myself the same time last year.

I know exactly what you mean when you say "I need a break." Very few people understand the physical and emotional havoc cycling has on our bodies.

I also understand when you say you have to stay on the estrogen/progesterone/Lovenox cocktail because I did too (only I was also taking Claritin, Pepcid, Prednisone and a baby aspirin too).

Last January I had a cycle cancelled at the last minute because my lining suddenly got too thick. I even got a "bonus" D&C out of the deal. In retrospect, the cancellation was good because my sister got pregnant too (naturally, of course) and we would have been due very close together.

You are in my thoughts and I hope you find your miracle this time around!

Adam and Loucinda Sawinski said...

Fly, we have been on 1.5 baby aspirin, folbic, 2 prenatals, and doxycycline. The steroids were supposed to start today with more antibiotics...but guess we won't be needing them. I just didn't count the pills... Congratulations on being so close!

IVFlygirl said...

I figured there were more pills than you listed. Just curious, why won't you start steroids anyway? (I'm always learning)

Adam and Loucinda Sawinski said...

You know, I didn't ask about them! I have them here at the house, so may take one tonight and call tomorrow. It's very different that IVF. I don't start the delestrogen until tomorrow and don't start the progesterone until Sunday...which is weird! By next Wednesday, we'll be on 200 mg PIO, 600 oral Prometrium, AND 3 Endometrin inserts a day...because I just don't make any on my own now. I'll let you know once I hear...guess they couldn't hurt!